I haven’t “blogged” in forever it seems..I have all these to do lists of what I want to accomplish and I still seem to be on the same list from a few years back..when they say time flies..damn it it does. and I have so much catching up to do it seems.

I’m hitting my 34th birthday today - don’t feel much different but definately being reminded that it’s time to play catch up. I guess everyone around me got the memo to start living life while I’m just trying to figure out what direction to go with mine. I’ve had a few hurdles along the way so I can use that excuse but now really I feel more than ever I have no time to waste..

So I’m noting a reminder list to myself of some of the trivial things I want to do and in a way be a reminder to myself next year of what I can mark off the list…

Ischia, Italy (throw in some Rome, Tuscany and Florence)..it’s still on my list - I want to go before I die is my new motto, because I want to actually see what my father would paint in my head with his stories..

Stress Less..I want to learn how to stress less and not give a damn what others say..I think I’ve gotten ballsy with age, that for sure and less timid and shy - I would never talk to anyone and now I am more comfortable with strangers than anyone else, I guess because there is a sense that I may never see these people again so really if they judge me it won’t matter cause I won’t hear it. anyway stress less - I want to learn how to do that more

Expect Less..I expect too much I think sometimes out of people and I realize you can’t force anyone to feel the same about what you like, want, etc.. out of life.

Understand why things are the way they are and stop beating myself over what could have or should have been. With people that I’ve lost in my life, friends - people I loved that didn’t love me, all of them - I still think about them and wonder what if this and that but really maybe it was all just meant to be this way and that I need to understand that instead of internalizing and thinking I did something wrong for that person not being in my life. I still love those people..it’s sad to not know someone anymore and wonder how their life is.

Career - my constant struggle. I still love design and magazines, but I know I could be better - I’ve still haven’t been in an environment where I can be creative, it’s always someone else manning the station, telling me what to do to the a page and working with someone else’s design - it’s like complete torture but now I’ve gotten a glimpse of web design and my design and the responses are good so now my idea is to turn to the web, get into it more. My other idea is a restaurant, cooking - I still have always had that dream and I want to pursue it more than ever but that’s a complete change of pace - and I need to go back to school, etc..but most of all need support.

Bicycle - I need a new bike. that’s it. simple. A girl bike though - no bar across the top.

Gym - stay on my healthy path, keep losing the weight and keep the motivation up. see where I’m at next birthday…

Garden - next year my garden will be better, more Martha-like. This year is was a mess, and lost a lot of tomatoes because of my laziness - well not so much laziness, just no time to go back there and fix it all. I am going to be OCD about it next year, map out a plan, mark where all the plants will go and pull my soaker hoses around so it’s all timed.

Love - share more and hope to meet someone. Leave it at that since I like surprises and I feel like I can’t plan this one out at all - it’s all up to karma, god, whoever..

Business - my design business, The Baby Cakes Co. - all my ventures that I want to setup, I need to get a plan made and get on them and make sure I follow through..

So enough of my to do list..all about me in this one I realized…ahhh no blog police so I can tickle my ego a bit today I think..